Thursday, June 30, 2011

Day 30 of 30 ... 30 days all about and for my Cody boy

My dear sweet silly boy,

You are my joy. Babies and kids almost always change a mommies life. You saved mine. I waited for so long for you to join me here on Earth. I have always know more than any thing else I wanted to be a mom. When I started making wrong choices and then wasn't able to have kids and start my family like I'd always wanted I changed. My priorities changed and who I was and thought I wanted to be changed. I even thought I had started to convince myself I didn't really want kids.  Then one day all that changed. I found out, "Surprise!" I was pregnant. To me this in it's self was a miracle. I was resigned to the fact I might never get to be your mom. Imagine my joy.  That day I changed. With in a few weeks my whole world changed. I left California and moved to Arizona to be closer to my sister and brothers. I started going back to church. I started following the guidelines & standards the church out lines for us to live by for happy lives. 

It was not always easy. But I kept telling myself, Heavenly Father answered a 10 year old prayer of mine, so I needed to keep my end of the bargain.  I aways knew I wanted to raise my family to know the truthfulness of the gospel and the church. So, I started going. It took time to get comfortable with being there.  But with time and perseverance I got comfortable. And I became active again. And I got where I liked who I was and who I was becoming. I was more calm and collected as a mother of a 6 1/2 week early preemie than I has been in years. I made new friends and when you were just under 1 year old I, as you already know, met your daddy. We moved to Texas to be with him and the girls.

Every day of my life you make me smile. There are plenty of moments where you make me want to pull out my hair, too, but the little moments full of love make it worth it. The past 30 days tell about you and your little blooming personality. You have a stubborn streak. You are so smart and good at problem solving; which includes finding a way to get what you want.  You are a lover. You love to hug and cuddle me. You like kissing people and asking them if they are, "all better." You have a chore and you are really good about doing it. You feed the cat. The cat named Mouse who you just call Cat. (Too smart, I say.) You know all your colors. You know shapes and numbers. You can spell your name and recite 2 of the 13 articles of faith. You know who you are.

Cody I am so thankful to my Heavenly Father for bringing you into my life. I don't know where I would be if you hadn't decided it was finally your time to come to this world.  Thank you for choosing me to be your mommy. I promise to do my best to teach you and love you and help you in this life. I can't wait to see all the other things you will do over the next 70 years.

Love,

Your Mommy

2 comments:

McConnehey said...

You are so amazing Shawndel!!

Opa~gala! said...

Shawndel, this is so touching! I loved reading your story about how having your little boy was a life changing miracle! What a tremendous blessing! I am sooo happy for you, and as I read your post, I remembered you for how I truly remember and know you. I love you still, dear friend, and am so happy that you found your life, and are so blessed now... :D

Love,

Roberta :D