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It has been awhile. Every thing is on facebook. And for a year-ish. I was posting for school on another blog.

Cody is in 2nd grade and Caden is in preschool. they are awesome. I am really glad I get to be their mom. All I ever wanted when i was young was to be a mom. I knew I wanted it more than any other job. I imagined all the great fun things I would do and how much I would love my kids. I wanted a little girl so bad, too.  Now that I have boys I can't imagine having a girl.

My family growing up was full of dysfunction. Yet, full of love and fun. Maybe my mom put the fun in dysFUNctional! I know I am not the mom I thought I would be. Kids make it a lot harder to be the perfect parent than I thought they would. Ha! Yet, every day I try and hope and pray to do better and be better.  At 39 years old I know that I don't know it all. Some days I feel like I don't have the patience to pull down my pants to pee, let alone parent and love and teach and lead and guide two of God's amazing children.  Yet, just like I don't pee my pants and I muster up the patience to move them outta the way I also some how find the strength with in me to parent.

Now if only I could get my kids to not pee their beds I would feel like a success.

I celebrate my 4 year old who can spell his name and his brothers name.

I taught when Cody said a mean thing to a girl in class. (He announced he didnt like her and he didnt want to sit by her.)  I smiled when he told me 2 weeks later he liked her and she is "kind of like my friend now, mom."

I cheered in my heart when my 8 year old told me he didn't punch the bully back even when the bully said, "Cody, just punch me two times then."  Because he knew it wasn't right and it would just get him in trouble and the bully kid was trying to get him in trouble too.

I laughed when he told me he didnt know who "Karma" was.

I thank my Father in Heaven for my mom and dad. They are amazing. I know they love me and my siblings. I know they love the Lord. I know they believe in the Plan of Happiness. I know they are not perfect but they never give up.

I am so thankful I get to be a mother and raise these boys.

I am sad I know karma all too well. But, meh. It'll be ok!